alone

What happens when you're alone? I feel alone. I don't feel alive. I'm depressed but I'm not depressed. I'm sad, but I'm not sad. I'm happy, but at the same time I'm not happy. I go to school every single day, trying so hard to fit in, yet I can't. No one seems to accept me for who I am. Who am I? The excitement that I had to learn is nowhere to be seen. The love I had for writing and debate? It's all gone. No one seems to understand. No one knows what I'm going through. What am I supposed to do? Sometimes, I wish I were gone. I don't want to die, but I do. I want to depart from Earth and vanish from everyone's lives so I could breathe again. Freely as I wish to, but I can't. I'm stuck in this trap between the choice of living and death, but I can't choose. I'm stuck.