Body Issues

I know this is not the biggest of problems-But it is still a problem that affects my life. I am very insecure about my body image, weight, and looks. I always feel the need to suck in my stomach or wear oversized clothing so nobody will see my extra fat. It is almost summer and I have tried on bathing suits and it pains me to look in the mirror. All I see is a piece of junk. I have starved myself and even tried a workout plan. But I wake up every morning feeling like a hot mess. I look at other girls and think, "Why can't I look like her?" I try to push it away but nothing helps. I hate being so obsessed over my looks. I try to tell myself, "It doesn't matter, nobody even looks at you anyway." But it is so hard to go through.