feelings

i dont know how to feel about it all anymore. i dont hate you, hate is too much of a strong word. but everytime i get reminded on u i cant help but feel a mix of emotions. i love you, i know i still do and i know i always will. i wish we had more time together, theres so much i never got do with you or to tell you about. i miss your comfort and how special u treated me with you werent in a bad mood, i dont think ill ever get that ever again honestly. if you somehow see this and know its me, just know that if u ever wanna apologize and fix everything im here. ill always be here.