I am in foster care now,

I am in foster care now, I feel guilty for talking about the abuse in my home, the dysfunction and the pain. My little sister hates me for it, she did nnot have to deal with as much as i did, and I'm glad about that, if I could I would never let her grow up. The idea that she will be my age, 15 one day makes my heart hurt. The chances that she will learn about all of this and her childlike innocence will be gone hurts. She deserves a proper childhood. My mom is mad at me, she called me evil when the CPS came. They told her everything I said. She glared at me, it was not just a glare, she had death in her eyes. If she could she would of beaten me right then. my dad was crying when we were leaving , he never cries. i feel kinda depressed :0