top of page

i am in hell

i was abused by my teachers growing up. i was hit multiple times in school, they would sit me next to kids who would beat the shit out of me constantly and then they’d turn a blind eye while i got hurt. they told my parents i was acting out in class and then i’d get beaten at home, too. i remember getting grabbed by the wrist and dragged into the hallway and then shaken by the front of my shirt because i ran away to the bathroom to calm down once. i got locked out of classrooms and then punished for skipping class.

now that i’m in college i can’t talk to any of my professors and it’s destroying my life. every time i try my throat closes up and my hands start shaking and i remember exactly what it felt like to get thrown to the floor or screamed at or called a disappointment.

all of my peers seem to have one professor they trust or at least like but i literally cannot make those connections and because of this i’m missing out on office hours, internship opportunities, and a fuck ton of other connections. i wish i had died back then because i have no idea how to confront this fear now. it’s gone too far

93 views

Recent Posts

See All

Out of anyone, why me?

At 13, I was walking to the bus stop after school. I thought I trusted him. he waited at the bus stop with me. That was the last time I was every truly happy. He did things I didn't want him to do and

Dmi

Breathing relaxes me decretes negative thought patterns

body issues

Sometimes, I do not feel comfortable with my body, and this affects me in a negative manner; you know, how I view myself in relation to others. What can I do to stop comparing myself to others?

Comentários


bottom of page