lonely not alone

hi, ok today, yesterday, day before, I am just so lonely. Even when I'm not alone, I just want to be with people I'm not scared to ask if they want to hang out with, and screw the social norms of no double txting and having to wait forever just to reply. I rly wish we could just go back to when people would write love letters about someone, show up unannounced at the door. I really miss family too, but im reaching out and it's making my head a little clearer.