top of page

To my assaulter

Sometimes I still wonder if it was my fault

Maybe I should have screamed and fought instead of repeating “stop it” “no” “I don’t want this”

Maybe I should have squirmed more

Whatever it was I did, I know it wasn’t enough because you reached out to me afterwards asking if I wanted to do it again

I wish I made you feel as guilty as I do for the stake of responsibility that I hold in this and not making it clear to you how you were hurting me

I’ll never forget the complete lack of control I felt for my body and what happens to it

And the moment that I gave up on myself when fear took over and I valued my safety more so than, well, you know.

I’ve since started taking more care of myself, and the person that everyone else sees.

I know now that safety, life, and peaceful moments are something to be cherished and I’m done making decisions that don’t make me happy.

I’m doing well now.

100 views

Recent Posts

See All

Trying to understand experiences from the past

I want to know what you think about this.... When i was younger in the 6th grade was listening to my teacher's lecture, i remember writing in my notebook word for word when suddenly without warning my

I hate my grades why can't i understand lessons quicky?

It hurts so much, I just can't believe it it doesn't matter what i do i always mess up! I hate myself so much, i can't believe it a whole semester of work and it's gonna go down the drain because of a

Forgiveness, or Lack Thereof

You don't need to forgive to heal. Forgiveness means "I still love you, despite what you did to hurt me." Cope with what's going on in healthy ways, but don't ever feel you need to forgive to heal. No

Comments


bottom of page