clean

i'm 14 days clean of self harm and 1 month & 20 days sober. i know im young, i dont know why i started doing this stuff in the first place. i just wanted an escape from everything, and honestly lately ive hated being sober. i now know the consequences of my action, but i want to relapse so bad. im scared to reach out to anyone for help, whenever i feel trapped and desperately need help no ones ever there. everyones asleep, everyones busy, everyone else has a life. its all my fault, i shouldve never tried out this shit in the first place.